I've been going through an emotional phase these couple of weeks. I've just become so... down. And the things that were bright and fun and happy aren't those things anymore. I would like to think that this is only a phase and I hope it doesn't progress any worse that it has now. I wish it was easy to explain, why I feel like - like I'm not really meant to be here and why I actually feel like I'm living a lie. I wish the answers were in black and white, I'd rather not deal with the time wasted on trying to find the answers that are probably so simple yet so difficult for me to see.

I hope that explains some of the shit that's going on inside of my brain. x

"I turn, and (stooping through the morning) kiss this pillow, dear where our heads lived and were."

I'm scared that you're going to stop loving me because I'm turning into this person I don't want to become.

Why aren't you interested in love?

It hits you like a thousand knives stabbing you all over your body. You can't breath. You can't think. Least, not about anything but the pain.

I wish I could just disappear. I'm not important, to anyone. 

Can you make things easy? Or do I have to feel pain for you to notice the darkness behind my eyelids?

Oh, look at that. I did it. I'm sorry I'm such a lazy person. Will post soon <333

Happy Ramadan everyone.

I want you to love me like you love her.

Don't stop doing what makes you happy, your scars shine brighter than the stars in your eyes. Lies take from you when you have nothing to give, smile a little this month. Please.

Tired.

Don't worry, I'm not dead. Just have a fever, and I've been passed out in bed from the overload of meds. I'll put something exciting in a few days. Oh, and one more thing......I STILL CANNOT SEND ASKS ON TUMBLR, WHAT THE HELL BRO.

xx.

I feel...it's better to be dead.

WHAT THE HELL.

I haven't been gone that long and blogger changed so much. Srsly. WHAT THE HELL. Dashboard, stop hiding.

How are you?


I'm fine.


How do I break that habit? No one will know how I really feel and I'm so tired of all the lies.

Don't you know the world shines every time you smile?

I need to do thissssss.

I want to hand write a letter to someone overseas. The last time I wrote a letter was in 2002 on Valentines day at school, but we sent them to houses in the area. Arg. Make this come true. :3

I will beat you.

Tonight I'm going to shoot zombies and laugh manically while I do it. I do sound like a crazy person.../puts on sunglasses and nods like a boss/ that's how I roll.

I don't want to be scared of the monsters anymore.

I wish the feeling in my chest will go away. The feeling like you're about to cry but you're keeping it in as long as you can. It's a constant reminder of my imaginary fears. The inner workings of the mind keep me down, tied to the dark dark night because there is no air for light and monsters seem to steal everything bright. Sometimes everything doesn't seem worth it when I'm cringing at the slightest sound or when I'm sitting in the silence of the car. It doesn't seem worth it.

My name is Thania.

and I like to rp.

Kid meets world header image.

Check out those mad skills. Yeah, I did that. Pffft~ Hope everyone has a lovely day.