"Happiness hit her like a bullet in the head, struck from a great height by someone who should know better than that."

"I want to change the world... instead I sleep. I want to believe in more than you and me."

Coming back from the dead.

 "Lee, I'm alive. My whole life flashed in front of me. In three years I'll be married to a Chinese woman. We had three kids, look just like you, only a little darker." - Oh man, I love me some Rush Hour.  

I'm back! Guess who just found out who was in Cape Town this holiday? Are you guessing? Hmm, I'll just tell you... JUSTIN BIEBER! Whataguy.


Schools starting tomorrow, eww, and I'm going to gym (yeah! air punch). 


I don't have much to say. Disappointing. Maybe tomorrow I'll have news for you since school is my sad life. Psh. 


YN.   

65 questions.

1. First thing you wash in the shower?
   my hair

2. What color is your favorite hoodie?
   black

3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
   no.

4. Do you plan outfits?
   only after I went shopping.

5. How are you feeling RIGHT now?
   like a potato.

6. What’s the closest thing to you that’s red?
   my panty.

7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having?
   I was fighting Emma Roberts with a wand from Harry Potter but then she turned out to be Avril Lavigne. 

8. Did you meet anybody new today?
   No, my life is gross.

9. What are you craving right now?
   Malva pudding.

10. Do you floss?
    Sometimes.

11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage?
    Cages.

12. Are you emotional?
    My life is emotional.

13. Have you ever counted to 1,000?
    Yes, at a tile shop.

14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it?
    Just lick.

15. Do you like your hair?
    I guess so.
16. Do you like yourself?
    Yes.
17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush?
    No, he sucks(no offence.) Obama's better.
18.What are you listening to right now?
   Dickhead by Kate Nash.
19. Are your parents strict?
    Mom wears the pants in the house.

20. Would you go sky diving?
    Yes!
21. Do you like cottage cheese?
    Nope.
22. Have you ever met a celebrity?
    In my dreams.

23. Do you rent movies often?
    I don't have a car so I can't rent movies.
24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you’re in?
    My personality.
25. How many countries have you visited?
    3.
26. Have you made a prank phone call?
    yes, 2 years ago.

27. Ever been on a train?
    Totally.

28. Brown or white eggs?
    White eggs. Scrambled. Yes please.

29.Do you have a cell-phone?
   I'd die if I didn't have one.

30. Do you use chap stick?
    Yeah (its red)

31. Do you own a gun?
    Does it count if there is pepper spray in it?

32. Can you use chop sticks?
    No, the way i use chop sticks could kill you.

33. Who are you going to be with tonight?
    My school and friends and parents and strangers.

34. Are you too forgiving?
    Yeah...

35. Ever been in love?
    I'm too young to know what love is.

36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow?
    Eating pizza. Bitch.

37. Ever have cream puffs??
    I have no idea what that is.

38. Last time you cried?
    Last year. I'm super woman.

39. What was the last question you asked?
    Are you done with that?

40. Favorite time of the year?
    In January...yeah baby.

41. Do you have any tattoos?
    I have a fake one

42. Are you sarcastic?
    Totally, thats how I roll.

43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect?
    Yes. Who didn't

44. Ever walked into a wall?
    ...it happens.

45. Favorite color?
    blue(green, purple, turquoise, brown but nobody has to know)

46. Have you ever slapped someone?
    Yes, but people slap me... its personal.

47. Is your hair curly?
    I don't know, what if it's both?...same

48. What was the last CD you bought?
    My memory sucks ass.

49. Do looks matter?
    Yes. Sometimes. Maybe. Only a little. 

50. Could you ever forgive a cheater?
    Yes, it's me we're talking about.

51. Is your phone bill sky high?
    I live on R135 vodacom baby!

52. Do you like your life right now?
    its kinda boring

53. Do you sleep with the TV on?
    No, i sleep in the dark... Like a normal person. Psh.

54. Can you handle the truth?
    I guess so.

55. Do you have good vision?
    My eyes play games with me.

56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people?
    No.

57. How often do you talk on the phone?
    Not so much.

58. The last person you held hands with?
    Friend.

59. What are you wearing?
    Bright blue skinnies and Ramones top.

60.What is your favorite animal?
   Meerkat.

61. Where was your default picture taken at?
    At home in nadia's room.

62. Can you hula hoop?
    nope. I'd fall on the grown.

63. Do you have a job?
    No, I'm scared I'd give the wrong change to customers. And customers scare me.

64. What was the most recent thing you bought?
    Chuckles.

65. Have you ever crawled through a window?
    Yes. At camp. I didn't have a key to my room.

Post.

Mom: "Next month I wanna go on a diet and never eat supper anymore." 
Me: "When are you gonna?" 
Mom: "I have no idea."


I still love you XD.

Working in my sleep.

"I wish an elephant could magically fall from the sky and onto my school." - because nobody likes school.


It's 20 to minutes to 12 in the night. I'm only starting on my english essay now. It's due tomorrow. Yay me for bad timing skills.


YN.   

Again.

I cannot watch you be you. You always make me want something I can't have.

I wish part 1.

I wish I didn't listen to music 'cause then I'd never be able to write lyrics as statuses. But if I didn't then I'd be a loser. Bleh.


YN.

Meet me half way.

I am *so* having a party on top of the mountain. Yes please.

The Qur'aan.

When I forget, I can always go back to you.

That dusty old book I keep on the top shelf,

behind all forgotten memories.

Calling my name when I ignore,

the cries it makes as I flee after eight.

That dusty old book that smells like home,

safe and guarded with life and oblivion,

the smell of Thursday nights and mingled breaths and echos

as we move like one

and pray for people with angst and pain

as hope builds with our minds and beings.

That dusty old book that solves our problems 

and lessens our fear as our eyes roll over

the meanings of our past and

utter bismillahir rahman nir rahim with love and devotion

and sacrifice. 

  

That dusty old book I opened this month,

believing that my desires and sins will vanish before me

as my hands run down your dusty spine and beautiful words

with tears lingering and smudged smiles.

Sighing with you, remembering the past as today,

I'll keep you close between my heart and ribs

and you can be remember me with my voice and endings. 

Too much things to do and no more time left.

"I'm a black hole where happy things come to an end."


This is really frightening (in a funny - loser sorta way.)Okay, let me start from the beginning: 

• In August I got a Art assignment,Beautiful, which is due September and I can't get ANY inspirations. 

• Last week Thursday, fast started so I'm fasting (yay, but I haven't even lost a kilo yet. Bitch.)

• Friday, I got a design project and some homework relating to that. (Do you see? School will and can be your living nightmare. Arg.)

• I am trying to find an Eid outfit, but I hate shopping and my granny always makes me and my sister's outfit for this occasion.

And I have to do all these things at once. MY LIFE is crazy. It's really funny that at the end of the day I always get whatever I have to do done. Huh. If anybody has ideas for Beautiful, that'd be great. 
  

To you. You. And you.

Happy Ramadan to all the muslims.

How I despise many things.

Things I Hate (With A passion):

1. Moths.
2. The color pink.
3. The smell of egg.
4. Mistakes.
5. Homework.
6. The flu.
7. PMS.
8. When people say "what?" and then I'd have to repeat myself.
9. When my sister pokes.
10. Drugs.
11. People who think South Africans have lions for pets and go to school in jungles.
12.  Disappointment (both ways.) 

What starts, never stops.

I'm the beginning
of the end,


with my deathly fires that burns light into space, and chains with locks that ties along my
world with a satisfying 
      click. 
I'd be stuck with you and breathe with you at the end of the beginning

with memories that pass and thunderous 

         shudders that 

shake my being.

And when I end with no more beginnings I'd drag a knife down my chest, between my 
          ribs and explode with the air and happiness,
and I'd rest in solitude and peace when 


I'd start over, with You. 

At the beginning with no 


endings.
  

I had no idea birds make that sound.

I have signed up for . . .


TWITTER. Yeah. Thats all. Have a nice Sunday.

Ordinary words.

It's getting colder as the days pass. School is starting wednesday and I hope - from now on and forever - things change and I'll change. I hope I achieve things I never thought of achieving and live life to the fullest with people I love and the people that begin to love me.  

"I'd rather be a could-be if I cannot be an are, because a could be is a maybe who is reaching for a star. I'd rather be a has been than a might have been by far, for a might  have been had never been but has was once an are."

I start laughing more when you start laughing. Ha.

"Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars. I could really use a wish right now."

Sometimes the thoughts in my head get bored and go for a stroll through my mouth. This is rarely a good thing.